Gloss

Lipglossed lips,
so smooth they shine.
Pink Perfection;
these lips of mine.

So how can it be
from their beauty spills,
words that cause
so many ills?

Words of anger,
born from pain,
they just come tumbling
from my brain.

I think there's something
wrong in me.
Left broken,
-not that you could see.

Lipglossed lips,
with much to hide.
What dark perfection;
these lips of mine.

Snow and Psalms

The snow makes England look like.... Narnia.
And it's so beautiful.
I'm naturally a summer girl, I adore sunshine. However I can easily put up with grey skies when a blanket of white snow settles.

I mean just take a look at what happened to the big tree
outside my house:


And the postbox:


However, many SILLY people grumbled about the snow, and how after five days of it, they would rather be at school.
I told these people, something a very wise friend once said to me, "We've had five days of snow, but we've had 12 years of school; I know which one I'm more bored of..."
However, now it has gone, melted away in the night and everything has gone back to normal. School returns.
Today, I was doing some bible reading with my friend Anna over Skype (which is awesome btw, if you don't have it GET IT) and we were going through psalms and realising just how awesome they are. The message versions in particular are so inspiring. I think psalms have a way a putting exactly how you feel into words, like prayers that you didn't quite know how to say. Anyway, this verse of Psalm 119 really grabbed our attention.

"Let your love, God, shape my life
with salvation, exactly as you promised;
Then I'll be able to stand up to mockery
because I trusted your Word.
Don't ever deprive me of truth, not ever—
your commandments are what I depend on.
Oh, I'll guard with my life what you've revealed to me,
guard it now, guard it ever;
And I'll stride freely through wide open spaces
as I look for your truth and your wisdom;
Then I'll tell the world what I find,
speak out boldly in public, unembarrassed.
I cherish your commandments—oh, how I love them!—
relishing every fragment of your counsel."

The line "I'll be able to stand up to mockery because I trusted your word" really spoke to me. So often when people mock me, I let doubt flood me. I have prayed for God to help me and I've realised that what I need to do is spend time reading the bible, so that whenever I am filled with doubt, I will be able to recall God's words and his promises. My feelings change from day to day, but God's word is constant. I know which one I should put my trust in.

Also, I watched The Sound Of Music, and came to the conclusion that telling people about your favourite things feels good :)
Soooo, my favourite book this week was Lord Of The Flies. It was a birthday present from my parents and I hadn't had time to read it till now. It's amazing. The writing is just so brilliant, and the book is so compellingly dark and scary. I really wish we were doing it as our exam novel now.
Favourite song at the moment is I Choose You by Point of Grace, and I'm loving He Is We. They're a really good indie band, just nice to listen to. This is their page on PureVolume:
http://www.purevolume.com/HEISWE
Lastly, favourite TV show was, without a doubt, Glee! It just makes you so happy, and the characters are so funny and loveable. The music is ridiculously good aswell. Don't believe me? Look for the Glee cover of Don't Stop Believin on youtube, it kicks butt ;P

Another Attempt at Poetry :)

A broken heart,
A troubled mind,
These things were mine.
Sleepless nights,
Tormented dreams,
These things I knew.
What is this power,
That sweeps my soul,
From inside out?
He sets me free,
Smashes my chains,
I breathe his name
“Jesus”.
Joy, light, life,
And I am born again.

What Lies Hidden in Wardrobes

So yesterday I was doing some real deep thinking, what with it being New Years and a time for reflection and all that jazz. However my train of thought sort of ran away and ended up at C.S.Lewis and how very much I should like to meet him.
I was never one of those kids who climbed trees or rode my bike down hills. I was the quiet kid who sat in the corner reading, and reading, and always reading. There's something so magical about books, there's a whole world bound up in their pages.

The books transported her into new worlds and introduced her to amazing people who lived exciting lives. She went on olden-day sailing ships with Joseph Conrad. She went to Africa with Ernest Hemingway and to India with Rudyard Kipling. She travelled all over the world while sitting in her little room in an English village. - From Matilda by Roald Dahl

My favourite place to travel, was undoubtedly Narnia. A place where animals talked, where the trees came alive, where children became Kings and Queens...

And then there was Aslan. I never quite knew what to make of him. He was terrifying and elusive, yet compassionate and loving. He quite literally boggled my brain.

"He'll be coming and going. One day you'll see him and another you won't. He doesn't like being tied down - and of course he has other countries to attend to. It's quite all right. He'll often drop in. Only you mustn't press him. He's wild, you know. Not like a tame lion."

There's so much contained within the world of Narnia <3 Since I've become a Christian, people have been recommending C.S.Lewis books to me. Not only his fiction, but his Christian writing. And through these books I've been discovering his wisdom :) "You don't have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body"
"A woman's heart should be so close to God that a man should have to chase Him to find her."
"I think that all things, in their way, reflect heavenly truth, the imagination not least."
I can't really explain why, but his writing clicks with me, it makes perfect sense. I feel like the voice of C.S.Lewis has been with me all my life. The author of my childhood stories, the inspiration behind my wild imagination. An imagination that has led to some truly epic daydreams during science lessons...
And now I'm looking over all his work with a new pair of eyes, reading his stories with the same belief he had, that Jesus Christ is the Son of God and that he died for us. Just as Aslan died for Edmund, then rose again.

"If the witch understood the true meaning of sacrifice, she might have interpreted the Deep Magic differently, for when a willing victim who has committed no treachery, dies in a traitor’s stead, the stone table will crack and even death itself will turn backwards." - Aslan

Looking back now, the message behind these words is so obvious, but I missed it.
There are messages scattered throughout the entire Narnia series.

"Aslan," said Lucy through her tears, "could you -- will you -- do something for these poor Dwarfs?"
"Dearest," said Aslan, "I will show you both what I can, and what I cannot do. ... You see," said Aslan. "They will not let us help them. They have chosen cunning instead of belief. Their prison is only in their own minds, yet they are in that prison; and so afraid of being taken in that they cannot be taken out." - The Last Battle by C.S.Lewis

Ahhh, it is because of stuff like THIS that I would very much like to meet Mr. Lewis, just to shake his hand and say thank you because even now, as I discover other books of his, such as The Screwtape Letters or Mere Christianity, his words help me so much. Help me to understand things I didn't realise I wasn't understanding...

So yes, essentially, this blog post was a gushing of how much I like the writings of C.S.Lewis. His words have been bouncing through my head the past few weeks and I needed to share them with people :)

"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen. Not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else..." -written by....C.S.Lewis of course =]